I've discovered my love for women. I've realized that I've deceived myself into thinking a homosexual relationship would work out easier than a heterosexual one....
In reality I'm more exposed and therefore more defensive and emotional and withdrawn all at the same time that I've turned myself in circles....
Women.... She's touch, smell, sight, taste and sound.... What can I even offer?
I've been looking for myself in all the wrong places yet, I just can't stop. The most compelling thing about a woman's mind and body is that it's so like your own yet not....
I can't sleep. I've begun college and have had three relationships with women in these busy months and I have finally turned eighteen this past saturday......... and yet. I'm not satisfied. I want so much more. Maybe this is what it means to grow up? (i'm sorry; more cliches)
Or maybe just to simply be human? I mean... who doesn't want more? There are so many things I yearn for.... the simple and complicated things that can either fulfill you or just leave you searching and reaching.... never quite satisfied.
When do you stop looking and just accept what you have? When do you say 'I think I'm ready to give in'?
The push and pull of the tidal wave of this world , do you let yourself drown?
No. You Don't. <3
